The Beginning

I guess the best way to begin my blog is to explain the reason for my blog's name: Crocheting for Sanity. It all began back on the start of Labor Day weekend, 2011. I wasn't out camping like most people were, in fact, I wasn't even being all that social. My mind had been racing nonstop for a couple of week now and I was starting to lose grip with reality. Let's rewind to a couple of weeks before when I had received a call from one of my brothers. My brother had gone to the doctor with my dad and he was calling to tell me what they had found out. When I answered the phone, his greeting was a squeak. That was all he needed to say and I already knew what he was about to tell me. My dad had cancer and it was terminal. I collapsed to the floor, heaving in pain. My brother continued to tell me things, most of which I did not hear. I then began to ask every question that was racing through my mind. "Are they sure?", "How long does he have?", "How is Dad handling it?", "Are you okay?", and "Why? Why him? Why now?"

From that moment on, my mind was racing and my heart was aching. My dad consumed my thoughts, day and night. I was in desperate need to regain some sanity and had no idea what to do. I turned to the computer for some way to escape my thoughts and somehow ended up on a website that was all about crocheting. My fingers were working all on their own now and started searching for ways to learn this beautiful craft. I spent the whole weekend in front of that computer, with one crochet hook in hand and a ball of yarn in my lap. That weekend, an obsession like no other, was born. I felt alive again! I felt free of the endless thoughts and the truth behind them. I almost felt invincible...almost.

I crocheted nonstop for months, always afraid to set my hook down and come back to reality. Why couldn't I change what was about to happen? How was I ever going to get through this? Why did I have to come back to reality? Reality was hard, cold, and unforgiving. I didn't want to face it....it was just too much for me to handle. I just wanted to freeze time and cherish what was left with him because there wasn't enough time left.

**My Dad (pictured above) always full of laughs and joy, he's trying to hide a smile in this picture but he's not fooling anyone.

This blog is another outlet to regain my sanity. I want to share my journey with all of you, from beginning to end. I hope that by sharing this, I can help someone else who is going through something similar . Also, I want to show that there is much more to what I create than just following a pattern. I put my heart and soul into every item I crochet.